Change

Surprise! I don't like change. I know I should embrace change because it can bring good things. After being a military wife for as long as I have been, change gets old after awhile. I find myself longing for something to remain constant, predictable, and familiar. That sounds funny to me after I type it because we have been in our house for 3+ years and I am itching to move. :) I guess that's also a result from being a military wife for so long. 

It's been no secret that we have struggled with finding a school setting that would work well for our youngest son. It feels like it has been a constant battle between the school and our family. That's one reason I loved homeschool. It allowed me to teach him how he learned best and there wasn't any judgement from the teachers or administration.

After a long discussion, touring of a different school, and more discussions, we have decided to change our son's school. The school we have chosen is not a traditional school. It is a new school so enrollment numbers are low. The middle school and high school children are in one room. There are 6 or 7 total kids in the room with 3 teachers. It's the closest thing to being homeschooled without being actually homeschooled. You won't be wowed by the latest technology or a fancy building, but you will be wowed by the love that the staff has for the children.The teachers loved on my child from the minute he walked in the door. They talked to him like he was a person that mattered. The teachers and staff listened to our concerns about his education needs, what we needed from the school, and what we felt our son needed to succeed in an educational setting. 

After we toured the school,  my husband and I talked about our options. We agreed that it seemed like it might work for our son because it's not a traditional setting, the class is extremely small, and the work is more challenging. But then comes the big gulp, how do we find the money to send him to a private school? Little did I know that God had been at work a lot longer than I realized. About 6 weeks ago we started the process to refinance our house. We knew it would take about 2 months for everything to be done and finalized. Until we sign papers I didn't think too much about it. We toured the school on Tuesday and on Tuesday evening we got a call that our refinancing would be done next week.(we sign papers tomorrow) How's that for timing? The money that we save from our refinancing will cover the cost of the private school. I only told a few people about our situation and asked them to pray for us. I didn't expect an answer as fast as I did.

In those moments when you think you are too small for God to care about, think again. I felt that way several times over the past few weeks. I can see that the enemy was working hard on my spirit. Especially on me as a mom. There were words I called myself that I wouldn't call another person all because I believed the lies the enemy was telling me. God rescued me from that dark place and showed me (once again) that He hears my heart. He knows my hurts and He cares for me. 

When I am waiting for God to answer I usually get in the way. I don't know why we received an answer as fast as we did that day, I can only say that God's timing is perfect.